~ Blog Closed.

Sorry for followers!

You guys have been really sweet.

But every good thing comes to and end.

No more Me & Mrs Jones.

It's Me & Me Alone.

This blog has come to an official close. =)

Stay on the tagboard! =D

Who do you take me for?

Fucking Ridiculous.

This is just plain fucking ridiculous.

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Young and full of running,
Tell me where is that taking me,
Just a great figure of 8?
Or a tiny infinite?
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Have you once wished that you spoke nothing at all, that you regretted a click of the mouse, or a press on the keyboard, wishing that you've never did what you did. Yeah I've got this feeling right now, it's hard it's sickening, I shouldn't have done it, I shouldn't have clicked on the name and typed, now I'm just living to regret it. Today, tomorrow and the day after.

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Don't say a word,
Just come over and lie here with me,
Cause I'm just about to set fire on everything I see.
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Words spoken, just bounced off the wall, thoughts in the mind, becomes just a whistling breeze from ear to ear, what do I expect her reaction to be? Wake up boy, it's 2010, it's not 2007 anymore, things will never go back to where they were, it was all just wishful thinking. The rug is starting to pile, as I sweep everything 6ft down under. It's almost time for me to start setting them ablaze a day at a time.

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Love is really nothing,
But a dream that keeps waking me,
For all of my trying,
We still end up dying.
How can that be?
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Everything comes to an end, it's how you take it, and how you see it, was it once beautiful? Or was it a horrendous ending.

The beautiful autumn is over, and the bitter cold of winter has just came to take over.

I just want it to be a beautiful winter.

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I want you so bad, I'll go back on the things I believe,
There, I just said it.
I'm just scared you'll forget about me.
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Hope you are happy.
Today, tomorrow and the day after.
And the years ahead.
I'm just concerned, why can't you see.
Do I deserve such, treatment, after all, all I wanted was to always be there for you.

But truth to be told, I'm starting to realize, I barely love you anymore.

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I was born in the arms of imaginary friends.
Free to roam, made a home, out of everywhere I've been.
Then you came crashing in, like the realest thing.
Trying my best to understand, all that your love can bring.
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Ah, once again, it is night fall. Had probably one of the longest day in my life so far, which started with waking up, at 3am in the morning for a free spin with the lorry, followed by my actual driving lesson, at 8.30am, followed by Swissotel and then Fairmont, and then to Far East, to collect what was meant to be worn for the rest of my life. Till I could afford a Tiffany & Co. Ring. Went on to school, and back all the way to Hougang to meet my insurance agent. And finally back home on the couch at 12am, catching 1 movie, before I got back on my hot seat on my computer desk. Thank goodness, I gave night shift a skip today, by asking the contractor to start work tomorrow.

Even a meeting with my insurance agent, could trigger such powerful and painful memories.

Agent : So, it's been 2 weeks since we last met! (whips out time line book), anything changed so far? You still want to get a car, by end of the year, allow your dad to retire by 20, get your girlfriend a huge diamond ring on her 21st birthday, and get married by 26? Any major changes that we can add into the time line?

Me : Yeah, everything, that has to do with my girlfriend, and yeah, that includes the car, maybe I'll just drive the lorry. We'll take it all out.

Agent : OMG, what happened? It's just been 2 weeks, is there no way out of this one?

Me : Not this time, not anymore.

Agent : Okaye, but I'll take it as you still want to get married at 26?

Me : Yeah, married to my job, most probably, no humans for me for now. =D

Simple conversation, that caused so much turmoil in my stomach, I wonder if I was suddenly hungry, or was I gonna puke, I wasn't exactly too sure myself. But whatever it was, my stomach was feeling all topsy turvy and all kinda thing. Not butterflies, more like bees stinging everywhere.

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Half of my heart's got a grip on the situation.
Half of my heart takes time.
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you.
That I can't keep loving you, oh, with half of my heart.
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Half of my heart, has told me that it is finally over, telling me that all this time of loving, has finally come to a dreadful end. While half of my heart, tells me to keep hanging on, to stay above water on the sinking ship.

Half of my heart, has told me that, the one girl I've sworn to protect, is no longer a responsibility of mine. While half of my heart tells me, that promise, should burn on always, even if I was to be miles away.

Half of my heart, has told me that, it's time to put down everything I've worked for, while half of my heart has told me that, I should keep on building, that holy grail that only belongs to her.

Half of my heart, has told me to look for somebody new, while half of my heart, tells me that, there isn't gonna be anyone new.

Half of my heart, has told me to speak to her, while half of my heart, tells me that I shouldn't make things any harder for her.

Half of my heart, feels so far apart from her, while half of my heart, tells me she's just right next to me every night still.

Well, that's just half of my heart.

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Half of my heart's got a real good imagination,
Half of my heart's got you,
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you,
That half of my heart won't do.
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I hope this separation, will be more good then harm to you. I hope you'll do better without me protecting you. I hope you won't get hurt ever again, I hope by staying away, to you, would be protecting you from getting hurt. Again.

And I do hope, you'd find someone, that can love you the way you want, that can be able to protect you the way you want them to, to give, and to provide you with that you need, to make you feel what real love is like, because I've never been able to show you. And I'll never be given the chance again.

Ironic how it's like that wasabi, that you swore never to eat, but ended up eating it better then I do, like how you'd never stand spiciness, and still drink 3/4 bowl of that volcano ramen soup. I realized, that things change, as time goes by, you want your own life, unprotected. You wanted to run into walls, and feel hurt. But am I wrong? All I wanted to do, was to never see you hurt.

Another segment for the niche amount of guys tuning in to my blog.

She loves pork chops, well done, nicely cooked, but remember to trim off the fats for her, and remember to tell her where the bone of the pork chop is at, she'd never have a proper time eating pork chops without knowing where the bone is. And those pork chops goes best, with potato salad, and corn, and yes the corn has to be on a cob.

Good Night World!
I've seen too much of you today as well.
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Oh half of my heart.
Half of my heart.
Just half of my heart.
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I'll hold onto this ring, till the other half of my heart tells me I should take it off.
Soon, soon it will be. Pretty soon. =)

Yes Marcus LYE, I've read your smses! Sorry I didn't reply them, I was too busy giving you a tribute, on my last post. D=

Marcus NG, sorry to have you tolerate all of my stupid nonsense today, you know I was kidding right? xD

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You get in, and then you get done.
And then you get gone.
You never leave a trace or show your face.
You get gone.
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3.52am, and I just got home, after sneaking the lorry out for a joyride. Actually wanted to take the Camry for a joy ride, but decided on the lorry because it was a manual drive. X=

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Should have turned around,
And left before the sun came up again.
But the sun came up again.
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My best friend Marcus Lye, have sent me 2 messages. Sweetest ones I've seen, in a very very long time! I shall type it here! =D

SMS 1
"Bro, just got back in camp. Wanted to let you know how nice it was to have spent some good quality time with you this morning. It has really been too long. And i also want you to know everything happens for a reason, as cliche as it might sound I believe in that. And I can say I know how you feel right now but maybe not to your extent but I know you know that time alone for yourself to think is what's best at this point. We've done our part to be there for you the past few days but now it's your turn to rethink everything you thought was gonna be your future and not just see the light at the end of the tunnel, but to see a whole new tunnel, a whole new better path"

SMS 2
"And know one more thing, Yiliang. I honestly believe you can achieve so much more than what you've set for yourself. You've no idea the tremendous respect myself and the guys have for you. Also, girls come and go and as much as this one might have had been the one, relationships are never certain. But Josh, Mong, Calvin, Kenneth, myself and gang seriously care for you, that's for certain and know that we're all always here for you. So as you go to bed tonight remember, you might have just fallen outta love but there are so many people around you who still loves you and more importantly that our love will never waiver"

Thank you Marcus Lye! Even though I haven't reply your sms. Because I was asleep, it was 2 sweetest out of the 6 messages that I read when i woke up. D=

And thanks to all of my friends, which include.

Marcus Ng, he accompanied me to havoc for 2 days.
Marcus Lye, accompanied me to havoc for 1 day, and sleep on the 2nd day! xD
Darren, accompanied me to havoc on the 2nd day! Thanks for taking care of me that day! xD
Kenneth, for being that lovely pain in the butt on day 2. xD
Josh, For being that whiny pig on day 2. "Wa! We eating every 2 hours since 12am la!" D=
God sis who cannot be named, accompanying me at the end of day 1!
And everyone else out there, who had helped me through this rough period.

Yep, I guess Marcus Lye, is right about one thing.
It's probably time for me to rethink, about what I thought was my future. Everything has changed. All of a sudden, everything that I've thought would become, has now been swept under the rug, decided to do that instead of burning everything into thoughts of ashes. I'll just leave it under the rug till it decides to disintegrate.

Spent the whole afternoon, thinking about my funding for a car. The more I thought, the more it becomes more and more feasible. Hiak Hiak. A promise to Marcus Ng! Next time when I get my car! It's gonna be my turn to drive you! So you can drink okay! And hurry get rid of that cursed 10dollars you found on the floor. D=

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I was a killer, was the best they'd ever seen.
I'd steal your heart before you ever heard a thing.
I'm an assassin and I had a job to do.
Little did I know, that girl was an assassin too.
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If what I had, and have given you, wasn't good enough, I hope you'd find someone, or have someone in mind, that could give you the type of love that you want, the kind that you are searching for.

And guys out there thinking of filling my shoes, you better love her the way she wants, because if I do find out, that you don't. I'd freaking skin you alive, and make a floor mat out of your skin (you better be furry) and feed you to my dog Jojo.

For the niche amount of guys, that I know is reading this blog.

She likes pasta, plain pasta, with lots of mushrooms (chunky) lots of tomatoes (chunky) lots of onions (nice and soft in half rings) with lots of sauce, sour one of course, she hates it sweet.

Good night world! I've seen too much of you today. D=

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She's an assassin, and she had a job to do.
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Green lemon juice with honey. Works best for sore throats. And lost voices.

I've got so much to say, but how to.

Beautiful Sunday morning, thanks to people who were in charged of taking care of me last night. Marcus Ng, Darren and a crazy bunch of girls, followed by Marcus Lye, Kenneth and Joshua. You guys were really sweet to help me through this rough patch of mine!

I really appreciate it! Waking up to Josh on my left and Kenneth on my right, was a brand new experience. Too bad Marcus Lye left a little earlier, or else it would have had been so much more 'weird fun'

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Now that we're over as the loving kind.
We'll be dreaming of ways to keep the good alive.
Only when what we want is not a compromise.
I'd be pouring tears into your drying eyes.

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12.12pm, and I just reached home, sitting back in my room finally, gonna put some thoughts through my mind now, properly process it, and slowly digest it. I mean this is what i'm supposed to do to while trying to move on right? =) Properly sort through my priorities now that everything have changed.

One of them told me last night "Told you not to get back together, but you still keep doing it. See what happened now?" Ah, I hate it, when someone goes like that "Told you.....xxx" But I guess I deserved that anyway. And I told him my explanation. "I really thought she was the one, I really wanted her to be the one, and I was silly enough, to have thought that she thinks that way too, I've built everything on her, all my long term or short term or whatever goals, have been built on her, designed in her name, everything I had worked for, in my hand, was all hers to have and keep, if you were me, would you not feel lost?" When all of a sudden, your dreams and goals, and motivation, just went paper blank.

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You whisper "come on over" cause you are 2 drinks in.
But in the morning, I'll have to say goodbye again.
Think we'll never fall into the jealous game?
The streets all flood with blood of those who felt the same.

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I'm in the war of my life.
At the door of my life.
Out of time, and there's no where to run.
I'm in the war of my life.
At the core of my life.
Got no choice, but to fight till it's done.

So fight on (I won't give in)
Fight on everyone (I won't run)
Fight on (I won't stop for anyone)
Got no choice, but to fight 'til it's done.

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Thank you Marcus Ng, Marcus Lye, and my god sis.

You guys really helped make everything so much less painful, and made me finally see the light, in a never ending tunnel. Changes that i've made, to fit the mould of 1 person, should never have been done, bending and breaking just to fit what i've become, to try to make someone happy. Wasn't exactly worth it afterall, to get a smile that is fake, to get a kiss with no heart, and a hug with no soul. And words of love, that meant nothing at all.

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I've got a hammer,
And a heart of glass,
I just got to know right now,
Which walls to smash.

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Over the years, i've build this wall, for us 2, around us 2. Working on how to fortify it, and making it a wall of glass, just because you wanted it to be. You wanted to see everything outside, from the inside. I build it up, just for 2. And since it's made of glass, it's gonna seem like, it's gonna be pretty easy to knock it all down. But why, does it feel so damn hard right now. To knock down this walls that i've built.

Guess I need another day.

Tomorrow, Sunday, I will wake, a crusader full of penitence. I will smash this walls, one by one. I will set everything up in flames. So much so, there wouldn't be anything left to hold. Nothing at all. Not for me, not for you. And it will be all over.

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Ritornato a me

Who wanna watch fire works with me on the 31st July?

I've got a reservation at Equinox. D=

3 year's started fighting.

Fighting, for something, so damn hard, so damn painful to hold, yet I held ever so tightly, time and again, it's spikes pierced my hands, through the skin and flesh and bone. I continued to ever hold so tightly, in hope for the day, that I dreamt would come.

3 year's later i'm still fighting.

Fighting, for something, that has left, nothing for me, nothing at all, just words that said "I want to have nothing to do with you." What have I done, but give you everything, that you said you wanted, that you needed. Fighting, for the dream to stay alive, for her to keep 1 promise, that she failed to fulfill, time and time again. Even a promised call, that never came for 5 days.

I admit, I expected things in return, for everything I did, and this is what I've expected of you. Nothing more but your love, that you once had, running in your veins, for the person you've claimed to love. Nothing more, you should know better. It's pointless of me writing.

Tonight, this day, I'm still fighting.

Fighting, for myself, I asked, oh lord, what have I done, to deserve something like that, I've given everything for this 1 girl, everything that she ever wanted, working for everything that she might want and need. Why have you punished me so hard, for a girl who could lie at the fact that she loved me, when all I truly did, was to love her with all my heart. Oh lord, I've done nothing wrong, but what have you done. To me.

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Tomorrow, I will wake, a brand new man.

With nothing else to fight for, all the goals and dreams, just vanquished, just like that. Into thin air. I deserve nothing, I deserved nothing at the end.

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You said I was pathethic.

Yeah, I'm pathethic, because I did everything for you.

Girl, if I haven't protected you for the past 3 years. I wouldn't have had been so pathethic.

I've got a story to tell.

A story, of how a boy, has been destined to be played by 1 girl.

You see, I was in love, with a girl called Madelyn.

It's been 3years down the road, and all of a sudden, I could barely recognize her, it's like all of a sudden, she had changed, changed into this, twin headed witch, that I could barely recognize. Manipulating me time and again, abusing me time and again, constantly taken for granted. For, thinking that she meant it every time she said she's sorry, or when she said she wanted to make it work.

When all that was the truth, was that she was afraid to be alone, how could I tell? It was simple, when she needed me around, she becomes really sweet, really loving, speaking things, that would only tempt the heart, and when she didn't, she has twenty thousand excuses, to kick me away. How could I not know? Her common phrases were.

"You are suffocating me" - Given
"I need some space" - Given
"I just want to make my mum happy" - Err? (have i not been trying to do that?"
"Is there anything wrong with making people around me happy?" - Nope, nothing wrong at all.
"I feel lonely sometimes" - Ya whatever.
"My friends are scared of you" - That's because of what you tell them about me.
"I feel like you are a responsibility" - Fuck you, YOU are a responsibility
"We need to grow up.." - Nope, YOU need to grow up.

And then here comes the most most ridiculous part! Her expectations.

"I want a xxx Carat diamond ring, for my engagement, wedding, and wedding band"
"I want a balenciaga bag"
"I want you to earn a lot a lot of money for me"
"I want you to buy me a volkswagen beetle"

And there were also things like.

"Can't I have a little expectations?"
"I don't wanna sit in a lorry" - This used to be
"I don't care what you drive, as long as you pick me up =D"
"Why don't want you? You are gonna own 2 bird nest farms"

And then there were.

"What if you fail?"
"What if you don't succeed?"
"What if you don't manage to do it?"
"Are you sure you can do it?"
"You are gonna give up half way"

And her best catch phrase recently added.
"Can't we just be a normal couple? Like everyone else?"

Ah, if you think above mentioned, should be taken like a man, yes i did, i took them like a man, many a times pissed of course. But what do you think a soft hearted man would do, if she comes tugging at your arms, knowing that she's pissed you off?

But, this best catch phrase, I really cannot cannot comprehend.

If we were a normal couple babe, you wouldn't be enjoying what you are enjoying now, while packing your bag for your camp, i realised something, close to 1/2 the clothes, were bought with my money, and as well as, your expensive jewelery, were as well bought with my money, your tray of hairbands, were of course, 3/4 all bought by me. The food that we eat, costing a good, 40-70dollars / meal, were as well, all paid by me, no I get it, you always tell me "I don't have to eat good food, or I don't have to keep spending money" But if you do not realize, all those just conflicted with all your 'expectations'. If we were a normal couple, I would not give shit, about you having the take the public transport every morning to school, because i can't do anything about it. Instead, I'm slogging like a whore every day, doing night shifts time to time, pressing hard on my driving, so I could get a car to send to school at BoonLay, every morning, when my work place is in Bedok.

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You expected me to be truthful, but you haven't been any much truthful to yourself either, you lie every single day, every single time, when you said you love me, truth be to told, you don't actually love me, you love the fact that I could mend that empty void, whenever you wanted me to, and that you could shun me away anytime you want to as well, knowing you can damn well, abuse my soft heart to get me back anytime you want again.

I can't believe it took me so long, to go into realization, in the kind of shit hole I have been in all along, thinking that, now that my service to the nation is finished, I could finally make up, for everything, for all the time lost. And all that I've been repaid with, was a heap of hypocritical love, that you've never meant seriously before.

Well at least I know, I can go to sleep at night, knowing I've done nothing wrong, but truly love you, by meaning, every time I say it, and prove it. While time and time again, you just fail to prove what you promised. And time and time again, breaking, and wrecking and shattering those promises into pieces.

I'm done, i'm really done, i've been wrecked by 1 girl, totally wrecked by 1 girl.

Rushing home, to cook soup for her, before her camp, bringing it to her place, helping her pack her bag in the most convenient manner possible, staying up, to help her check her probable taxi route. Reminding her, in a last SMS, that she has a boyfriend at home, working really hard, just for the future of both of us, and hope she doesn't forget it.

And 3 days later, here she goes again.

This time I'm done.

I'm sick and tired of playing your game Madelyn.

You've got a big heart, yes, no doubt, you love helping people, you really love to help people, especially those who are not close to you, especially those who are handicapped, I know, i do too. But i wouldn't say i've got a big heart. But atleast i know however small my heart is, it pounds, and it's burning red with passion, while you, just leave people closest to you, the most upset. What's the use of the big heart when it's black and heartless.

Remember, those who gave you what you have, and are still giving you. You are nothing without them, nothing at all. You can be everything to everyone else out there. But you are nothing, without those who given you everything that they had.

Wake up girl.

pathethic bitch.

Let's make this clear, really really clear.

You chose to make things this way, no matter how many times i told you not to ever do it.
I don't ever choose, or have a choice, how things between us ever go.
You always made the decisions on your own.
And I, usually just pay the price, of everything.

Anger I feel right now, i think it's only judgmental for me to feel that way.

Since that day, i looked into your eyes, and saw something beyond myself.
I had started changing, into a mould, that i thought only you deemed fit.

You made the mould, and i just took shape of whatever you had shaped it to.
Whatever you wanted, I had given to you.
Whatever you could not have, i worked for it.

And you think it's fair, for you to make a 1 man decision yet again?

Don't we all make mistakes?
Haven't you made your fair share?
Just to be forgiven?
But me?
I've made my share of mistakes, just for you to condemn me right down to hell.
I made my fair share of mistakes, just for you to FINALLY CATCH ME?

I've never landed into the state you are in right now.
Just because I trusted you.
Just because I remained silent, on things that I am unhappy about.
Because, nothing wrong that you did to me.
Can ever be compared, to the amount of rights, we could have done together.

But to you it is different, way different.

YMCA, and volunteering, used to be such a happy thing for me.
Use to be something, that I could do, to enrich myself and to help others.
But now, when I think about YMCA, and volunteering.
I think about the times we fought because of it.
I just have such a bad mindset about it.
I don't have any good memories left of YMCA and volunteering.

You said I don't support you in what you do.
Think again, what have i not ever supported you, in whatever you did.

When you were looking for a job, did i find you a job?
When you were out of job, and your school didn't have a slot, did i find you a school?
When you quarreled with your friends, whose shoulder did you first turn to, to cry on?

There are so many more, i won't even bother listing them down.
In case it just makes you think I'm running you down again, with 0 intentions.

I'm just giving myself a fair judgment on how, this has been.
And how you have turned this thing out to be.
And if after all this, 3 years, and the things I did for you, the changes i made BECAUSE of you.

Wouldn't make you realize how much I love you.
I'm done.

How do you think, at 19, we could feast on a 60dollar meal.
Think of which high tea we want to go.
Which buffet we want to have?

Hey babe, I'll tell you.
It's because.
I Slogged my fucking heart out, so did my lungs, so did my liver.
Just for us to enjoy what we did the past 3 years.

Just for us to not worry,
About where to eat, what budget we have, what we are restricted to buy or purchase.

I truly needs someone who appreciate me.
Someone who truly appreciates what I do for her.
And sadly, really really, sadly.

Why can't the girl just be you.

Jones.

I don't know what are the chances of you reading this.
I don't even know if you bother with my blog anymore.

Lol,

But yeah, i'm moving on.
3 years, is just way too long to hang on.
Especially when you give me nothing to hold on to at all.

Even 3 weeks, i would say it's just way to difficult.

I guess this is the end.
And lets make it clean this time.

Goodbye love. ;)

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you would spend the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat.
And i wish that i was the last thing on your mind before you sleep.

I wanna make you smile,
whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
Oh, all i wanna do, is grow old with you.
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches,
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh, it could be so nice, growin' old with you.

I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold,
need you, feed you.
I'll even let you hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink,
put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man who grows old with you.
I wanna grow old with you...

~~~

All this now, holds only to a distant wager.
I'll work to pay off my debts.
Till i owe nothing again, i will be free.

And what could've been a story would have had never end.

Ended right infront of my eyes.

You have been punished my man,
She has been taken away.
By your own actions on impulse.

Oh god, bless me with another day with her.

And it shall be repaid with my life.

Why have your heart grown so soft.
Crying all alone till day breaks.
Without complain or regret, you loved that person.
You are not that strong to begin with.

All kinds of burden, you chose to bear with it alone.
Being in love is so easy, but living together as one just isn't.
If it isn't yours after all, there's just no point insisting.

It's late.
You're still thinking of her.
So tired, just being in love.
Knowing she'll not be back to comfort me.
All you wanted is just to love her.
Sadly, it was never good enough for her.
Unnecessary sacrifices made, when she doesn't know the heartache.
You don't want to just be that good guy anymore.
Ayeeee, just forget it.
What will be will be.
Foolishly thinking that she would have something she could fight for in us.
What a mistake i have made.

It's just time to move on now.

Where did my baby go.
I wonder where she's went off too.

Where did my baby go.
I hope that she'll get back soon.

So if you see her out there.
Tell her i'm still here.

Please tell that girl if you meet her.
That someone is longing to see her.

And the simplest things in life is often the most beautiful...

Thank you baby.

You are the most beautiful. :)

And who said the fighting never ends?
I love you no less then i did yesterday.
Everyday..

Here i am, here we are, as it will go on forever.
Noise, always noise.
Candles burn, lights are low.
I haven't a place to go.

Life in it's constant state of moving nowhere.
The music is nice, floats through the air.
sounds of waves crashing everywhere.
Percussive submissions, mind conditions.
Writing with the left hand.
Unknowningly and taking the chance.

Why not fly? Why not try?
This constant game i play to stay high.
But all is just a state of mind.
All is reality of your choice.
Constant evolution, constant adaptation.
Constant state of moving no where.

Footsteps, silence is loud.
Kindness is brave, wisdom is long.
Loving is necessary, i need it, we need it.
Searching, looking for satisfaction.
It is nowhere, it is everywhere.

Preaching, pleading, praying, for God to come.
What are we waiting for?
Why are we so afraid of taking charge?
But it's always changing, always.
In the constant state of going nowhere.

We all have demons to battle, roads to walk.
Crosses to bear, mistakes and sins.
Candles and their steady glow.
Water and it's constant crash.

Endless horizon, rocks of time long gone.
Still strong, still here and so are we.
Here we are forever.
The constant state of going nowhere.

If 1 was 2, and 2 was 4.

We'll have to sum it all up once and for all.

I'm so sorry.

I shouldn't have done it.

I will not ask for another chance.

I just hope you'll give it to me.

Ever so sore from what had left.

Ever so tired of what had become.

Ever so tormented by truths that speak for themselves.

I have cleaned the man of many words.

Yet too many have already been spoken.

For yet again it's too late.

For me to put them back where they were.

But again, it's never too late.

To start where it never begun.

Nothing feels better then being home.

Finally.

Spending first few hours of my touch down with my sweet friends.

And beautiful lover.

Beautiful astons, beautiful soup, beautiful tie.

Gorgeous companion.

Nothing could be better then this then my return. =)))

Have you ever thought that.
What if something or someone leaves.
And never come back?

Have you ever thought.
About losing something so precious.
Something so close to your heart?

Have you ever thought.
Maybe, this is the time.
That you might lose everything?
Just because you lost 1 thing?

Have you ever thought.
What would happen.
If i never came back?...

What do i do.
When there is nothing to come home to.

What do i do.
When pain has set into that aching heart of mine
Does that make an aching pain?

I wish it all came back.
All that sweet loving tenderness.
The good ol'days when nothing else mattered.
Except for us.

The days when you'll get all excited.
Just because you were meeting me.

Because till this day,
That is still how i feel.

And it aches me to see how much things have changed.

I don't want to come back to nothing.
Nothing at all anymore.

I'm done waiting.
Let me wait no longer then this trip's going to be.
I wanna come home to somebody/something.

Bye Bye Earthlings.

lies lies lies.
i'm sick and tired of all this lies.

What started out a beautiful morning.

Ended like a hailed night fall.

And all i wanted was for you to understand.

And appreciate.

Trying to earn back what i've lost.

In 18years of life.
So many phases had passed me by.

Never was there a phase.
Which i would want to last forever.

Because I've learnt that.

Nothing last forever.

No one stays forever.

Everything and everyone comes and goes.

They will leave someday.
Just indefinitely when.
Why wait for the day they leave, i thought.

I knew it would hurt so bad.
But i just waited, till they day they left.

And then look back and think.
"Why hadn't i left first"
"Why was i there, for them anyway?"
"What was there that i could take away?"

And then i look ahead.
And i still see myself doing it over and over again.

Why is this.
Why is this i was brought up this way.

Into a family that taught me nothing.
But to put people ahead of me.
And to not stop working until i'm physically unable to do so.

I'm a boy.
I'm 18years of age.
I should be enjoying my teenage years.
Thinking no further then the weekend at the club.

But what have i done to myself.
What have i gotten myself into.

It's a phase where people are leaving now.
My love ones.
My love one.

The people who's left standing by me.
Doesn't see what i see.
Doesn't feel what i feel.

Nothing's been easy for anyone.
Why does it have to be so much harder for me.

Privileges taken away from me.
So much, taken away from me, for 1 cause.
No, i'm not complaining.

I just hope at the end of the day.
Justice will come, and tell me if what i've been though.
Would be worth it.

I am only human.
I ain't no super human.
I have feelings too.
I also want my fair share.
Why doesn't anyone understand.

Oh lord, drag me out of this moment of darkness.
For I have fallen onto bended knee.

Show me the light at the end of the tunnel.
For I have turned blind by ignorance.

Forsake me for the good and bad that i have done.
For I have to learn what's only good for myself.

Forgive me, for putting up my brave front.
For my heart has been decimated over and over again.

Enlighten me.
For i have been stupid and foolish,
To assume what i thought was best for someone.
Wasn't afterall.

Lastly, show me.
For, i'm lost.
I want to come home.
Be it alone or with company.
Show me the way home.

~Cheers.

And don't you know.
That it's wrong to take what he's giving you.
So far gone on your own.
But you can get along if you try to be strong.
But you'll never be strong.

High and dry.
Out of the rain.
It's so easy to hurt others.
When you can't feel pain.
And don't you know a love can't grow.
Cause there's too much to give.
Cause you'd rather live for the thrill for it all.

Can we just stop.

Stop coming back to the same problem.

I thought we were pass that already.

But what fuck, why are we coming back.

To the same problem again.

The persistence in me is running low.
The tolerance even worst.

The time will pass like the monsoon.
But the mind burns like summer rain.

Hail falls ever so mercilessly.
With thoughts crashing like gentle autumn leaves.

Sweet as honey were your kiss.
Beautiful as it was, those spring garden flowers.

Cold as it was every night.
Your ignorance laced my cold winter heart.

The seasons changed.
But the heartache stays the same.

Why does it have to be this way.

=))

New skin, thank's to the person incharged of doing it.

Never actually thought i'd use it.

But i'll just use it now anyway.

Not too late right? ; )

How do i, say goodbye.
To what we had.
The good times that made us laugh.
Outweighed the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever.
But forever's gone away too soon.

I don't know where this road.
Is going to lead.
All i know is where we've been.
And what we've been through.
I hope it's worth all the wait.

I'll take with me the memories.
To be my sunshine after the rain.

It's so hard to say goodbye.
To yesterday.

Starting to feel like.

I just don't need it anymore.

What i thought i needed to keep myself alive.

I seem to be doing just fine without.

If both are so unhappy, with it.

Why not just leave it.

I sure do just feel like an extra burden on your back.

But rest assured.

I'll lighten that load.

Nightmares, can just never stop haunting me.
Seems like it's telling me something.

A bad premonition it may be...
I wonder what life ahead is going to be like.

Life without her,
How will i figure my way around?

I need some help...

I don't know anything about the future...
If only i knew...

Do what you want.

Be what you wanna be.

It will no longer make a difference.

amour compliqué.

Look at the half eaten apple...

Come home before it's too late...

It's like...

The room is always missing something some how...

Ughh..

What is it!!

Goodbye sweet days.

Hello.

You look new.

To Whom :

I don't know what you want us to do.
I don't know what you want me to do.
I just only wanted you to hang in there.
Just for a little while more.

So that i could come out, and ease the burden.
But you couldn't wait.
You refuse treatment.

And you think you are a burden.
And you think you are useless.

I haven't given up on you.
You are my closest male friend.

Please, wake up, tell the world.
You are stronger than this.

Or atleast tell me.

I'm at a lost, atleast tell me what you want me to do for you.

If a promise ain't enough, then a touch says everything.
Gotta hold you in my arms, do you feel what i mean?
Know that my heart tells me what just to say.
But words can only prove so much.
If a promise ain't enough, hold on to my love.

Though my words can't describe how i'm feeling all inside.
Does my touch say anything to you?
I'm not afraid to take time, cause i know you'll find.
That i'm real, and my touch is true.
It's taken a lifetime to find my heart, and i give it all to you.

Oh, it took a lifetime to find what i want.
I won't let it get away.

Yiliang, wants to bring breakfast for you.

But he just doesn't know how to go about doing it.

What do you do,

When nothing you do seems to do anything.

When nothing you do, seems to be appreciated.

When you watch things depreciate infront of your eyes.

Damn does it hurt.

To Whom :

I am thoroughly disappointed with you.
I know you have tried really hard to get through it.
And you were doing fine.

Why did you have to give up on yourself now?
When everyone else is still rooting for you.
When no one had given up anything on you.

You have disappointed many people.

I just hope you would re-consider, and think about things again.

Because who you are disappointing, is the people who would mean the world to you, when no one else is around.

Hope you understand where i'm coming from.

Today i'll be leaving, not for long just another week.

But it is long, because i know, when i get back.

I still wouldn't see your face greeting me at the steps of my door.

Time, time.

If only you would pass... faster...

The difference between 1 and 2 is 1.

Confused?

Yeah me too.

Can we go back to the days our love was strong.
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong.
Can somebody tell me how to get things back,
The way they used to be.
Oh god give me the reason.
I'm down on bended knee.
I'll never walk again, until you come back to me.
I'm down on bended knee.

Baby, you told me that you love me,
And you'd never leave my side.
To the bitter end,
Through the thick and thin.
You promised me baby,
That you wasn't going anywhere.
Yes you did,
Baby keep it real,
Let me know just how you feel.

Goooooooooood Mooooooorninggggggggggg Everybody!

I'll do anything,
That you want me to do,
I'll do almost anything,
that you want me too.

Confused and left alone.
When the only shining light at the end of the tunnel,
Fades into a tinted shade of grey.

Close your eyes, hold on.
It might just be over when you open your eyes.

No, it's just the beginning...

"Did you know that everything she ever does is for you?"

I've done nothing wrong.
I've never lied.

But you just never believed me.

Was it my past?

Was it who you accepted me for?

I believe so.

A heart made for a lot of sorrow.
No you can't come back tomorrow.
Shut my windows, lock my doors.
Cause my heart won't be your ragdoll anymore.

I'm sorry, i did not mean to hurt my little girl.
It's beyond me, i can not carry the weight of the heavy world.
So.

Goodnight Goodnight, hope that things work out alright...

The kiss you left me with, still feels warm on my lips
The hug you left me with, still caresses my body.
The time you had with me, still lingers that bit in the back of my head.
The love we shared, still holds me when i go to bed.
The nights we had, still never fails to put me to tears.
Those cold hands that once held mine to keep warm.
Will still stay warm for you.
Only for you.

&

The love i have for you, still runs in my blood.
The love i have for you, still pumps from my heart.
The love i have for you, is still unconditional.

Forever & Ever Babe.
Forever & Ever.

Separate ways.

If that's what you want.

I drove myself insane, wishing i could touch your face.
But the truth remains, your gone.

Days and days under the unbearable sun.
Seems to have left me with some pretty bad tans.

Some aloe vera cream would really help. ; )

Spellbound and speechless.

Trying and trying and trying.
Wishing hoping and praying.

All i wanted was to be concerned about you.
All i wanted was to be the best man for you.
All i wanted was to give you the best of myself.
All i wanted was for you to be happy.
All i wanted was to build a perfect future with you.
Nothing else, nothing more.
No warranty, no money back.
Because you were the best to/for me.

If you are happier this way.

It's time i let go and leave & stop pestering.
I've understood (thanks jie!)
And for the last time, i loved you.
Never did i ever love you less.

~Cheers.

Fingers trace your every outline.
Paint a picture with my hands.
Back and fourth we sway like branches in a storm.
Change the weather, still together, when it ends.

Sleep tight my dear.
Your gonna have a long day tomorrow.

Hurts to see how things torture you.
Hurts to see how you torture yourself.

Work hard girl.
You can do it.

- Jones.

When it happens it happens.

No use trying to not make it happen anymore.

Don't come too close to me.

I bite.

Looking at the broken window.

Tell me, which way in?

Which way out?

Quitting smoking...
Symptoms of withdrawal...

- Anger Mood Swings --> Checked
- Boredom --> Checked
- Diarrhea --> Checked
- Feeling Cooped Up
- Dry Cough --> Checked
- Cravings --> Checked
- Depression
- Dizziness --> Checked
- Fatigue --> Checked
- Frustrations --> Checked
- Headaches --> Checked
- Increase Appetite
- Insomnia --> Checked
- Irritability / Grouchy / Tensed --> Checked
- Lack Of Concentration
- Loneliness
- Night Time Awakenings --> Checked
- Restlessness --> Checked
- Tightness In Chest --> Checked
- Weight Gain
- Mouth Sores / Ulcers --> Checked

Do you remember the days?.

When everything felt all so right...

I can't make the same mistake.
If you lose my love, it was yours to take.
Break down your door, take a little more.
When i need you around.
And i'm so terrified of leaving.
It's a new low, try and pick me up again but,
Let go, see how far i will get without you.

But still desperately need more of your.

Hot love, wrap yourself around me like a,
Warm glove, the emptiness leaves me.
And I.
Feel the never need to go back to the way I was.

Thanks for the movie guys.

Though it was crappy in the end!

But!

Thank all the guys and girls that came to keep me company!

~Cheers!

Oh the memories.

Oh the happy times.

Oh the times we stood by each other.

Oh...

Oh...

Oh...

Oh...

I loved you sooo much...

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

It's book in day!

No i'm not happy, just wondering what's in stall for me all this week.

Hope it wouldn't be too bad.

Hope i'll be busy!.

Because if i only have 1 shot.

It will be that 1 shot, that makes it, never to break it.

~Cheers!

Oh! And Derrick!

Get well soon, did what i can to help.
No more alcohol for you next time!

~Cheers!

Everywhere i go.
Everywhere i walk.
Everything i see.

Just reminds me of something, somehow some way, some what.
Well, could've been worst.

"Just give it up and move on..."

"Not just yet. I'll take the pain..." ;)

For i loved you so much.

But that was all that i was able too.

Because i could only love you so much.

I've learnt.

By respecting yourself, by not smoking, not drinking, not taking drugs.
Is actually the most extreme limit that you can push your body towards.

~Cheers

For this will be the new me.

For this is what shall be presented to you.

Wait for me, i'm coming right back for you.

Soon. ; )

Into the ditches.
Over and over and over again.
Why can this never end.

Panic.

Why now.

So come to bed It's getting late
There's no more time for us to waste
Remember how my body tastes
You feel your heart begin to race.

When love kicks you back in the head.

Aww...

The Sun.
( Amazing how some songs really make sense )

After school 
Walking home 
Fresh dirt under my fingernails 
And I can smell hot asphalt 
Cars screech to a halt to let me pass 
And I cannot remember 
What life was like through photographs 
Trying to recreate images life gives us from our past 

- Life is just normal, plain normal, we get what we expect everyday.
Nothing special, nothing that would be out of the world.
And we start to think about how life used to be better.
And how life now is never comparable with how it used to be.

But I cannot forget 
Refuse to regret 
So glad I met you 
Take my breath away 
Make everyday 
Worth all of the pain that I've gone through 
And mama I've been cryin´ 
Cause things ain't how they used to be 
She said, the battle's almost won 
And we're only several miles from the sun 
Moving on down my street 
I see people I won´t ever meet 
I think of her, take a breath 
Feel the beat in the rhythm of my steps 
And sometimes its a sad song 

- And somehow someone came along.
Tagged you along the way, made you feel special.
Told you that everything was gonna end.
Reminded you of the light at the end of the tunnel.
In the never ending downhill in your life.
But she left. 
But not before she reminded you that you are that close to what was the end.

The rhythm of the conversation 
The perfection of her creation 
The sex she slipped into my coffee 
The way she felt when she first saw me 
Hate to love and love to hate her 
Like a broken record player 
Back and forth and here and gone 
and on and on and on and on 

- Someone new came along.
Seemed all so perfect.
So seductive, so perfect, so appealing...
You know it's wrong.
And you know it's going to happen again, she'll be leaving.
And it all starts again.
And again, and again.

But I cannot forget 
Refuse to regret 
So glad I met you and 
Take my breath away 
Make everyday 
Worth all of the pain that I've gone through 
And mama I've been cryin´ 
Cause things ain't how they used to be 
She said the battle's almost won 
And we're only several miles 
Said, the battle's almost won 
And we're only several miles from the sun.

- And you start thinking back about the times once again.
Just like a broken record player, it goes back and forth back and forth.
Again and again and again.
Often leaving you confused, on what life is about.
On who will that someone special really be in the end.
And not forgetting what she first told you.
"It's all coming to an end"

high-flyer; high-flier

Someone who has a lot of ABILITY and a STRONG DESIRE to be SUCCESSFUL and therefore is expected to ACHIEVE a lot.

~~~

This phrase that you mentioned.
You forgot about all the keywords.

ABILITY STRONG DESIRE SUCCESSFUL ACHIEVE.

This are the points of what most people do not have.

If working hard is difficult.

Not working hard is going to be a whole lot harder.

Remember 11weeks only.

Stay strong.

It's gonna be all over soon.

Overachiever?
I don't give a crap.
Do you?

I went back to believing, Limitations are set by 1 self.

Exploiting that limitations, are reasons of most people's success.

Love,
Cloute

A Good WORD,
Is like a tree,
Whose roots are firmly fixed,
And,
Whose top is in the sky.

Another day in paradise.

Doesn't seem like too bad an idea.

Heheheheee~~

Torture me please.

It'll probably feel better.

We are the people who make the world.

Just you and me.

We can make this whole new world a better place.

When in love.

Think about not those quarrelsome moments.

But those short tender moments, that you once shared.

Think not about those painful moments.

But those dreams you've once built together, and are still building.

Think not about the solemn moments.

Cause, they take your love away.

Put it away.

And it's going to be hard to get them back.

~~~

I'm gonna be a better person.
A better lover.
Starting...
Now...

~Cheers

Tables turn.

Things are no longer in your advantage.

What to do... what to do...

Think...

~~~

Happy birthday baby.

Love you.

You see, i know change.
I see change.
I embody change.
All we do is change.
Yeah, i know change.

We are born to change.
We sometimes regard it just as a metaphor,
That just reflects the things we expect them to be.

In fact, Change takes time.
It exceeds all expectations.
It requires both now and then.
See, although the players change.
Things still remain the same.
But the truth is,
You gotta have the balls to change.

Cause baby.

The more things change.

The more things stay the same.

But remember, i love you.

Until my dying day.

Twist and turn.

To fit the mould you are in.

Whoever stole my wallet!.

FATHER MOTHER DIE!!!

NEXT TIME SON DICK GROW ON THE FACE!

DAUGHTER ASSHOLE GROW ON THE NOSE!!!

Give me just 1 more silent night.

And it all starts with a sleepless night.

And a mundane morning.

When your chest contracts.

Your head goes into a whirl.

Your tongue feel sour.

And you start to wonder what is going on.

Start crying.

It's inevitable.

The pains that take no more then a minute.

Are the pains that simply doesn't last more then a minute.

Quote :

When you are out on a limb,

The whole world is at your feet.

~~~

Thanks baby for the wonderful book.

It's lovely.

Loves.

When the world around you eats you up.

You just wouldn't have the appetite to eat back.

Another long day doing nothing.

Sometimes i really do question my existence on sundays.

It's sad to belong to someone else.
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad, to belong to someone else.
When the right one comes along.

Ah...

And finally it's over...

When the future looks bleak.

Close your eyes for a moment.

Cause when you open your eyes again, it will be a whole new world.

My Valentine.

Shaky, but holding on.

I appreciate everything you've done for me.

I love you. =)

When you're dreaming with a broken heart.
The waking up is the hardest part.

So...

Happy Valentines Day!

To those who loved,
Love, or still loving!.

Keep the spirit going.

Love is never too far away!.

=)

Hey baby, don't so sad.

I'll be back again soon, and this time it would be valentines day already.

=)

*kisses*

SEE YOU!! <33

Soon sunday is ticking away.

And my birthday is just around the corner.

Happy birthday to me! the long awaited 18year old.

is finally arriving.

~Cheers

Just sitting there and watching you eat.

Baby, there was nothing more i could ask for.

A big thank you, to all those that made my early birthday a wonderful one!

I love all of you,

Which includes all my pool khakis,
My dear Marcus Lye, whose never early,
And of course, my sweetheart. p.s i love you. x)

And last but not least! My bunk mates! Sorry i got you guys to bring me to rebel.
It was boring as hell!! SORRY GUYS!

Time and time again...

When words said doesn't exactly mean what it meant.

MARCUS NG WEI XIANG.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!

THANKS FOR MAKING MY DAY! HAHAHA!

Abandonner est la première étape.
Passer est le prochain.
La poursuite du bonheur est votre but.
En accrochant sur doesn' ; t vous rendent plus heureux.

Layers and layers peel away.

Showing the anguish, frustration and intolerance inside me.

While i grab on whatever joy i have.

Melancholy devours me.

Skins me, and pins me down.

When life sticks up upon the ceiling wall...

Just let it be...

Mah baybeh busy studying...


Me busy posing for the camera...

Hurrah! Hang in there darling!

xD

When,

1 + 1 = 1
1 + 2 = 1

And if,
1 + 3 is still 1.

You know, your in love.

Not that it makes you stupid.
But it feels really good, when you only have 1.

Staying awake!.
To make sure my baby wakes for school!

HAHA!

You gotta thank me baby, big time!.

( O...O ) <-- that's me with big panda eyes! =P

Tracing the sandtrail, as it begins to dissipate among the million others around.

You walk and walk and walk.

And when you realised that the trail had already faded away.

You are lost.

And the year's takings!!! *drumrolllll*

$ _ _ _.

=D

What if tomorrow never comes.

Would she still know how much i love her?.

As the quietest of new year slipped on by hours.

The mood of new year's eve, starts to creep just behind the hourglass.

Yes, it's the time of the year again.

Happy new year everyone!

And i don't feel the same.

Reunion dinner...

I think i'm going to implode...

The rush from a battle is often a potent and lethal addiction.

For war, is a drug.

Waiting for the sun to rise again.

Never felt so quick before.

With as the chill she set loose, course down my spine.

Desperately grabbing what i can, cause i know i ain't coming back here again.

Things wrapped up nicely,

Might turn really nasty, when it gets pried open by force.

Just before i go,

I lack a few things.

Okaye, maybe a couple.

42SAR here i come.

Don't sleep for me.

Don't eat for me.

Don't drink for me.

Don't fight for me.

Just, listen to me.

Stay...

Stay with me.

Ahh, the first post.

It sure does smell like fresh green grass from distinctive pasture.

Let's kick start the new year, with a brand new chain of thoughts.

Don't call it new year resolutions. (p.s. everyone calls it resolutions)

Let's call it, new year "TO Complete List"

Hurrah.

YiLiang
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